I’ve kind of been neglecting Movie Mondays lately. I haven’t come across many coming attraction trailers that have really gripped me. And I for sure have not come across any that have griped me as much as Phasma Ex Machina.
My enthusiasm for it hasn’t faded one iota since I discovered it via Twitter in December and first wrote about it. Ever since then I’ve been borderline online stalking the movie’s progress.
One thing I stumbled across when I went to check out their website and blog again last week was something I hadn’t paid attention to before: a post called “More Than a Ghost Story – Behind-the-Scenes Episode #2.”
As I was watching it, it dawned on me why this movie has captured my attention like it has.
While it is about ghosts to a large degree, it’s a very different kind of ghost story. It’s a much more psychological one than anything I think has ever been made to date. It goes somewhere I think we all strive to go as we seek our own encounters with ghosts –be that via Haunt Jaunting, ghost hunting, or even viewing paranormal activity from the safety of our boob tubes.
Phasma Ex Machina’s producer Jennifer Kramer, who’s interviewed in the clip, really sums it up best:
It’s about regret, remorse, if I coulda, woulda, shoulda. If I could do things over, well how would I do them differently? And what the consequences are of that. So it really delves deep into one’s own psychology of how you handle things that you did that you wish you hadn’t done, and also brings up the question maybe some things are best to be left alone.
I had to take care of my mom in the last months of her life. That was almost two years ago. I’m still reeling from the effects. I have a lot of regrets about how so many things went down during that time. First and foremost I’ll always regret not giving her the dying wish she wanted most, which was to just die in her own house.
And then, just five months after saying goodbye to her I was told I had that grapefruit-sized hitchhiker in my chest? I pretty much figured I was about to say adios too.
I’m not skilled enough to put into words the torment my heart felt at the thought of Death doing me part from my beloved husband Wayne way, way, WAY before I was ready. There was a lot of regret and remorse on my part for all the unspoken “I love yous” I’d withheld over the years for dumb reasons, and which I was painfully aware I might not get the chance to make up for.
And that, I have decided, is what the draw of Phasma Ex Machina is for me. It questions the “what if” and brings those answers to light in ways that only serve to emphasize how brief, fragile and precious our lives with our loved ones are –and why we should strive every chance we get to let them know how much we cherish them.
Here’s the “Behind the Scenes” clip if you’re interested in learning a little more about the movie.